Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Ground Control to Major Inari

Tomorrow, at the crack of dawn, I leave to the airport for a day spent entirely in the sky. From Ohio to North Carolina, from North Carolina to Arizona, from Arizona to California where I will chill for a week of fun happy times and then it's from California to Colorado, from Colorado to Ohio again.

First class, wee! Something something, the city of angels, something something, lame pick-up line.

I may not be here at the stroke of midnight to wish all of you a collective, "Happy New Year!" Thus I say it now, a couple days ahead of time. Happy New Year, guys. If I have your cell number, I'll try to shoot a text closer to the actual new year. Take care everyone, much love!

Update: Checking in live from Charlotte, NC airport. First flight out of the way, next flight from NC to AZ pending. I'm not sure if I'm legally accessing this internet so, I'll keep it short. Toodles.

And keeping with tradition...

Where did you begin 2009?
With loved ones.

What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Human. Hard to believe, I know.

Were you in school (anytime this year)?

Did you have to go to the hospital?
A number of times.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
None concerning the law.

Where did you go on vacation?
I went to Michigan, Illinois, and will end the year in California!

What did you purchase that was over $500?
A laptop.
Plane tickets.

Did you know anybody who got married?

Did you know anybody who passed away?
Big Skeet.

Did you move anywhere?

What sporting events did you attend?
I went to the horse track and won monies.

What concerts/shows did you go to?
Not any.

Where do you live now?
Ohio, again.

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2009?
Eat swordfish.
Hang out with Paris' mother.
Though I suppose I never really considered either before they happened.

What has/have been your favorite moment(s)?
Reading at the lake.
Sundaes everyday with my grandfather.
Hanging out with Holly & Riley.
Michigan. The entirety of Michigan.
Naxxramas/Ulduar drinking games.
True Blood drinking games.
Savior Lena.

What's something you learned about yourself?
I am a mighty tree.

Any new additions to your family?
Gobi Gaara!

What was your best month?
The month I spent in Illinois with my grandfather. Despite the lack of internets.

What music will you remember 2009 by?
Bad Things, Jace Everett

Made new friends?

Favorite Night[s] out?
Ben's wedding.
Taking my mom to the movies.
The night Lena and I met Creed is up there, though.

Any regrets?

What do you want to accomplish in 2010?
Get my own place, perhaps finally take up ASL.

What would you change about 2009?
I could have done without a certain someone being a huge huge jerk. That wasn't my place to change, though.

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Illinois and Michigan, respectively.

Have any life changes in 2009?
Yes indeed.

Change your hairstyle?
A few times!

Get a new job?

Do you have a New Year's resolution?
I'll get back to you on that.

Did anything embarrassing?
I believe I have a yearly quota of embarrassment to fill and I always go a little over.

Buy anything new from eBay?

What was/were your favorite purchase[s]?

Gobi Gaara! My laptop, several books, and my purse.

Get married or divorced?
Both! Just kidding. Neither.

Get arrested?

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?

Did you get sick this year?
Who didn't?

Start a new hobby?
I have plenty of hobbies.

Played any MMOs?
AoC, WoW, WAR, and spent a couple weeks as a commie.

Are you happy to see 2009 go?
I suppose.

Drank Starbucks in 2009?
No. I've had more than my fair share of Dunkin Donuts, though.

What are you wishing for in 2010?
Same thing I wish for every year! To rule the-- Happiness, healthiness, and wealth for everyone I know.

P.S. Because I said I would, here is a silly mom quote, "I especially hate it when it's so cold that when you walk outside the little hairs in your nose freeze, so they feel all crispy when you talk." I had to paraphrase because she wouldn't remind me what she said exactly and told me I could post about her resistance on, "myface." So there you have it, Myface.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Life Saver

I saved a life! A tiny fish-shaped life, but a life none the less.

I realize they classify small common goldfish as "feeder" fish in America but can you believe how many of them they have crammed into this aquarium? What the crap?

It is literally wall-to-wall fish in there! They're fin-to-fin with scarce any wiggle room! It made me feel bad, so I had to do something. I decided out of thousands, I would save one. Making the employee try to catch a specific fish in that massive school was their punishment for keeping them in such a way.

This one was chosen because of the little spot on his face. Meet Gobi Gaara!

That is Lord Gobi Gaara to you.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Happy Holidays

The Grinch's small heart grew three sizes that day.

Happy Holidays everyone! Yes, even you. I hope you're all in good health and great spirits. Have you been naughty? Have you been nice? You'll have to let me know what gifts you got, even if it happens to be a lump of coal.

I have no idea what to expect this year. I never made a list. It will be a total surprise, how exciting.

The holidays always makes me happy to be who I am and know those I know. I love you all. Truly. I don't say things I don't mean. No, I haven't been drinking. We can say these things without inebriation slurring it all together.

My mother just called me Snell. Freaking Snell. She's only been calling me by my first or middle name for how many years!? I suppose that's my cue to leave. Sleep tight, guys. I'll stop in sometime after morning.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

It's In The Water

Drama has reared it's great ugly head again, spewing frothy bile all over my social life. Different person this time. People? I guess. What's the point? Really. What's to be gained? All it does is bring about loss. For everyone involved. It's always tragic when insecurity turns otherwise brilliant people into idiots.

I'm a very candid person. Ask and you'll know pretty much anything about me. Very little is taboo or unspoken of. I've no reason to be dishonest. If you don't like me for who I am, then I don't want you to like me. Period. I'm fiercely loyal and will stand by someone no matter what is being said. No matter what poor choices they may have made, or wrongs they may have committed. I won't judge. I won't choose sides. I will not listen to rumors.

Not. Ever.

I trust, explicitly, those I call friend. If you say something I will take it at absolute face value. Not with a grain of salt or skepticism. Absolute value. I will believe it. I won't question it. No matter what someone else says. Even if they are also my friend. If it turns out to be false, you will reveal that to me yourself. No one else.

All of the friends I have made, I still have. With one exception, now. Going back as early as 2nd grade. Despite all of the moving and changes of phone number. That speaks volumes. Even a handful who may have wronged me, or, a handful I may have wronged. You know why? Because we were not vicious. Our wrongs were not done out of malevolence. If they hurt me or I hurt them, we dealt with it one on one. Settled it maturely between the two of us. Even as children. There was no need to segregate and choose sides. No need to drag others into it.

Drama is malicious and hurtful, worse of all, intentionally so. There is no such thing as accidental drama. Someone can accidentally hurt someone else's feelings, sure. You cannot however accidentally tell everyone about it. You start drama with intent in your mind and you know exactly what it is you are doing. Or hoping to do. Starting a rumor, passing along a rumor, believing a rumor, all contribute to needless drama.

Furthermore it has all sorts of adverse side effects, medically speaking from a psychological standpoint. Even for the crafter of said drama. It causes guilty conscience syndrome. That's where eventually, because you are so malignant, you begin viewing everyone else as equally mean and dishonest even if in reality they clearly aren't. Then you've got no one to trust. It's good for no one involved, even if the short term outcome seems beneficial.

There are many things I can forgive. Drama, for obvious reasons, isn't one of them. It's completely uncalled for. Emotional torment is worse in my opinion than physical torment. There is no excuse to put someone through that. Especially not a person you called friend. Absolutely no excuse. It doesn't matter if there was a transgression, real or imagined. It's petty and it's spiteful.

Am I angry? No. After all I'm also a firm believer in choosing your own mood and not letting someone else determine that for you. More or less disappointed. Even the little smiley up top says so. So what happened? I can't say exactly, because that would cause drama too. See that? It's the high road. It's a little steeper and harder to traverse, but it leads to a happier place. Lets be happy!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Doctor Slumber Party

It's almost time.

I go in a while before I'm expected to sleep, so they can observe my pre-sleep routine, I suppose. Makes me feel like a hamster. The forms I filled out also claim I will have a private room complete with it's own full bathroom (shower and all). They also claim they will serve me snacks upon request. Upon request. I ask for snacks and bam! there they are.

I just may move in.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Shopping Ballet

Tis the season for long long lines, I tell you what. I went to the mall today to pick up a few pairs of jeans and some gloves, since I never seem to have enough pants... and the lines were outrageous. I think I spent longer in lines than actually shopping for things.

Being some strange Amazonian mixture of tall and lean, I always have to try clothes on in the store before buying them just to be sure they fit.

That's where I discovered this gem:

Speaks for itself.
Then of course I had to have fun with it because that's what I do. So there I am in the middle of the store trying on all sorts of pants (because just trying on the ones I plan to buy is too easy) and dancing about (because this is what normal people do in stores).

Don't worry, despite the sign in the dressing room, I actually paid for all of the clothing I left with. 

You mean this is not normal? 

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Huge. Quickly.

Hey, uh, it's your doctor. I need you to do me a huge favor. Uh... can you please, uh, join us for a sleep over? My nurse went through your charts and uh... will be calling you with the date. You've got to do this for me. Huge. Quickly.

So. Doctor appointment revealed more doctor appointments in my future. Feign shock now. Specifically a CAT scan on the 14th and a sleep study date to be announced. I have to say, doctor slumber party? Sounds pretty awesome.

They also discovered that aside from insect sting I am also allergic to trees, grass, feathers, mold and dust and have absolutely no natural resistance to pneumococci. My immune system is missing several key components rendering me totally incapable of fighting off pneumonia. Pneumococci are also responsible for sinus infections and ear aches, which I had pretty much once a month every month, as a kid growing up. Thus they insisted on a pneumonia vaccine. I hate shots.

I will have to go back in five weeks for a test to see if my body managed to incorporate it, and how well. That is three confirmed doctor appointments from this one. A fourth with another doctor right after New Years. Possibly a fifth once this doctor tells my other other doctor what he found. I should just go to med school.

Amusing side note? I've been using a feather pillow since I've been staying at my mother's house. D-u-r-f that spells durf. Thankfully her house is full of bedding, for some bizarre reason, so I was able to procure a new pillow no problem.

Now I must consume Tylenol to combat vaccine fever!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Karma, It's Coming

As some of you know, I've been dealing with more than my fair share lately. I don't know why I continue to spare the guilty even when they don't deserve the kindness. Doing my best to stray as far from needless drama as I humanly can is my only guess? I'll go with that.

Seems a futile effort. Drama seems intent on happening regardless of my civility. Image 
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Yesterday was a really crappy day for me. A certain someone, we'll call them Usotsuki, hijacked my email account and the WoW account associated with it. So I could access neither my primary email or my game. Ironic that the only two accounts in distress were the very two Usotsuki knew the passwords to. Everything else was fine. Including several other WoW accounts I had access to and several other emails. How mysterious! Perhaps I should hire Sherlock Holmes to figure this one out.

I couldn't get to sleep after realizing the startling magnitude of douchebaggery that had just happened to me, so I went outside and laid in the snow getting snowed on. Cooled off, quite literally. The world is at peace when it snows. Until the little old woman from across the street eventually came over because she thought I had died in the drive way.

I discovered something interesting though. Blizzard Entertainment has better customer service than Google. Yes, that shocked me too. Aside from being on hold for an hour before talking to an actual human, Blizzard eagerly helped me out of the situation and even called Usotsuki a jerk for having done it. Oh random Blizzard employee, thank you for saying what I have bit my tongue on thus far!

Google on the other hand may in fact make me take a DNA test to regain control of my email. I'll have to deal with that later. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I really don't need to be dealing with all of this stressful bantha pudu. Enough's enough already.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Sleep to Dream

I went to bed last night around 4am exhausted, but by the time I hit the sheets my feet felt so cold that I couldn't fall asleep. They didn't feel that cold literally, compared by touch to other parts of my body, but it felt like I was standing in snow regardless. So as I lay there uncomfortable, my mind starts to wander. I do something so silly and girlie I made myself face palm with both hands.

I started thinking about New Years and how close it's getting. Then I got excited because my New Years plans this year are super awesome. After a while longer, my feet weren't as cold! I had successfully gotten my mind off of them. Time to seize sleep! ...Unfortunately I got myself so giddy about New Years in the process that I was also absolutely awake. Like a kid on the night before Christmas, or something.

So I'm laying there trying to mellow myself out, and I start thinking about my watch. It's still set to Central time, and I should really reset it to be on Eastern because once I'm in Pacific it's going to get mighty confusing adding three hours and accounting for the lack of one... and yeah. The thing is, my watch also has a little date keeper on it, so you have to set it carefully otherwise your AM and PM will be off and the date will be wrong. Not helping my cause.

Clear my mind, try again. Dragon Age. Everyone says it's super great. I've used the chargen, played the browser game, and would like to concur. I haven't been able to get my Daemon Tools to work though. Never trust a daemon. Haven't been able to play it, thusly. Have no DVD to burn it to! So now I'm trying to decipher that issue. What the frack? Just go to sleep! I roll about, disturbing a pile of cats and moosh my face into the pillows, pull the blanket over my head and try to will unconsciousness. To no avail.

As I lay there, on the brink of success I just can't reach, I start thinking about how I don't have a shirt to match my favorite skirt. I foolishly left the one I usually wear with it in Florida. Argh! I begin wondering if I'll find one that matches here this time of year. Camisoles and tank tops typically disappear in Ohio after Halloween. I could wear the skirt and go shopping until I find something that matches, I muse. Then I realize I'm doing it again.

Start over, roll over, squish a cat. Apologize. Start over again. Cat gets his revenge by yawning in my face. Why does cat mouth smell like stagnant death?! I submerge beneath my comforter again, holding my breath and probably making all sorts of faces. My phone has wiggled out from under my pillow after all of this and is hard and cold against my shoulder. I may as well look at the time while getting it out of the way, it's 7am!

I've been laying in bed like an Inaruritto for hours without actually falling asleep. I don't remember finally dozing off, but it was probably at least another hour later than that. Thankfully I had an interesting dream to make up for all the hassle. It involved a stable, a stable-boy, winged humans, a kingdom on the sea, royalty, war, great ships, and a sparrow. Use your imaginations!